Chapter One: Wednesday in Sterling<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was the Wednesday calf sale at the livestock commission in Sterling, Colorado, the second week of March, and the sale barn was packed the way it always is in spring. Ranchers had come in from three states with their bred heifers and their bawling calves, and the parking lot was full of gooseneck trailers and muddy pickups clear out to the highway. Inside, the bleachers smelled like coffee and diesel and cattle, and the auctioneer\u2019s chant rolled over everything like a hailstorm on a tin roof.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My daughter Kinley sat beside me on the third row of the bleachers, holding her bid card in both hands. It was a square of white cardboard with the number 214 printed on it in black, and she\u2019d registered for it herself at the office window an hour before, standing on her tiptoes to see over the counter while the lady behind it explained the rules. Because she was fourteen, the card had to be in my name, but she\u2019d filled out every line of the form herself in her careful handwriting and signed it at the bottom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She had saved for two years. She started the summer she turned twelve, after she showed a borrowed heifer at the Logan County Fair and took a blue ribbon and came home saying she wanted a cow of her own more than anything in the world. Not a show calf to sell at the end of the summer. A cow. Something to keep, and build on, and call hers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She babysat for every family on our road. She cleaned out stalls at the vet clinic on Saturday mornings. She saved every 4-H premium check and every birthday dollar and every five-dollar bill her grandmother slipped into her Christmas cards. She kept it all in a manila envelope in the bottom drawer of her dresser, and every few months she\u2019d bring it out to the kitchen table and count it, and then count it again, and write the total on the front of the envelope in pencil and erase the old one.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The night before the sale, she counted it twice on my kitchen table. One thousand, nine hundred dollars. Mostly twenties and tens, with a few fifties she\u2019d traded for at the bank so the stack wouldn\u2019t be so thick. She put a rubber band around it and zipped it into the front pocket of her gray hoodie, and she wore that hoodie to bed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A little black heifer came into the ring a little after one o\u2019clock. She was a straight-backed Angus calf about four hundred pounds, with a white tag in her ear and a calm way of standing that made the old ranchers around us lean forward on their elbows. The auctioneer read her out: a heifer calf from a reputation herd east of Akron, out of a good cow, open and ready to grow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley sat up straight. She\u2019d looked at that heifer in the pens that morning, walking up and down the alley with me for an hour until she found her. She\u2019d stood at the gate and looked at her for ten minutes without saying a word, and then she\u2019d turned to me with her whole face lit up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThat one, Mom,\u201d she said. \u201cThat\u2019s her.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Two: Two Years of Dollars<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I should tell you about Kinley\u2019s father.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy Odegaard and I were married for twelve years. We met at the county fair when I was nineteen and he was twenty-two, and we got married the next summer in a little Lutheran church in Haxtun, and for a long time we were happy. He ran a few hundred cows on rented grass southeast of town and worked at the elevator in the winter, and I started hauling cattle for other ranchers to make a little extra money. Kinley came along three years after the wedding, a tiny, fierce, red-faced baby who screamed for six months straight and then never stopped smiling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The marriage came apart slowly, the way a fence comes apart. A post here, a wire there, until one day you look up and realize there\u2019s nothing holding anything in. Troy started drinking more after his dad died. He lost his grass lease when the landlord\u2019s kids sold the place, and he sold his cows rather than find more, and after that he didn\u2019t seem to know what to do with himself. He got short with me, and then he got short with Kinley, and then one night he said something to her at the supper table that I won\u2019t repeat, and she cried herself to sleep, and the next morning I called a lawyer in Sterling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The divorce was final two years ago, when Kinley was twelve. The judge gave us joint custody, but at her age, she got a say in where she lived most of the time. She chose me. She told the judge herself, in his chambers, with only the court reporter there. I wasn\u2019t allowed in. I don\u2019t know exactly what she said. I only know that when she came out of that room, her face was very white, and she wouldn\u2019t look at her father.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy never forgave her for it. He never said so outright. He still had her every other weekend, and he paid his child support through the state, six hundred and twelve dollars a month, on time. But when she was at his place, he was cold to her. He\u2019d make her supper and then sit in front of the television and not talk. He\u2019d drive her back to my house on Sunday evenings and not get out of the truck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He\u2019d make little cracks about me, about how I\u2019d turned her against him, about how she was going to grow up just like her mother. Kinley never told me about them. I found out from his sister.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy hadn\u2019t run a cow since the divorce. He had no grass and no corrals and no use for a heifer. He worked full time at the feedlot east of Sterling now, running a feed truck, and he rented a little house in town with a yard about the size of a horse trailer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So when the auctioneer started the bidding on that little black heifer, I didn\u2019t even think to look for him. I didn\u2019t know he was in the sale barn at all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Three: Troy\u2019s Hand<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWho\u2019ll give me eight hundred?\u201d the auctioneer called. \u201cEight hundred dollars for this good heifer calf, eight hundred, eight hundred.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley raised her card. Her hand was shaking a little, but she held it high, the way I\u2019d shown her the night before at the kitchen table, so the ringman could see it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cEight hundred, thank you, young lady,\u201d the auctioneer said. \u201cNow nine, nine hundred, who\u2019ll give nine?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A man down on the front row raised his hand. Kinley raised her card again at a thousand. The man on the front row went to eleven hundred, and Kinley went to twelve, and the man shook his head and dropped out. For about two seconds, I thought she had it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cTwelve hundred dollars to the young lady in the third row,\u201d the auctioneer said. \u201cTwelve hundred, do I hear thirteen?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then a hand went up across the ring. On the far side, up in the top row of the bleachers, where the light from the big doors was so bright you could barely see. A man in a brown Carhartt jacket and a black feed cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThirteen hundred,\u201d the auctioneer said. \u201cThank you, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Her father\u2019s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I knew him the second I saw him. I\u2019d know the shape of that man anywhere. Troy was sitting up there in the top row with his arms crossed, and when Kinley raised her card at fourteen hundred, he raised his hand at fifteen, without moving anything but his wrist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley looked across the ring and saw him. Her face went white. She looked at me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMom,\u201d she whispered. \u201cThat\u2019s Dad.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI know, baby.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She raised her card at sixteen hundred. Troy went to seventeen. She went to eighteen. He went to nineteen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She raised her card at nineteen hundred and fifty, which was fifty dollars more than she had, because she didn\u2019t know what else to do. And Troy raised his hand at two thousand without even blinking.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He kept bidding anyway, right past her limit. He never looked at the calf. Not once, the whole time. I watched him. His eyes were fixed across the ring on the third row of the bleachers, on his daughter in her gray hoodie with the money zipped in the pocket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He was looking at her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I knew why. He was still sore that she chose to live with me. Two years later, he still hadn\u2019t gotten over standing in that hallway at the courthouse while a twelve-year-old girl told a judge she didn\u2019t want to live with her father. I guess he wanted her to know he still had the last word.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The auctioneer glanced at Kinley. He\u2019s done this forty years. He knew a girl\u2019s bid card when he saw one, and he knew a man bidding to beat somebody when he saw that too. He paused, longer than he needed to, and looked straight at her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cTwo thousand to the gentleman up top,\u201d he said gently. \u201cYoung lady? Twenty-one hundred?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She shook her head and laid the card in her lap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSold,\u201d the auctioneer said, and banged his gavel, and didn\u2019t say the price again. \u201cTo number 98, up top.\u201d And then he moved on to the next lot as fast as he could, the way you\u2019d move past a wreck on the highway.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Four: The Pickup<\/p>\n\n\n\n
People asked me later why I didn\u2019t stand up and say something. Troy\u2019s sister asked me. My mother asked me. A woman from church who\u2019d been sitting two rows behind us asked me in the grocery store the next week, with her hand on my arm and her eyes full of pity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The answer is simple. Because a scene in that ring would have shamed my daughter, not him. Every rancher in four counties was sitting in those bleachers. If I\u2019d stood up and yelled across the ring at my ex-husband, they\u2019d have talked about it for ten years, and every time they saw Kinley at a sale barn or a fair, they\u2019d remember. She\u2019d be the girl whose parents had a fight at the Sterling sale. Not the girl who saved two years for a heifer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I sat still and hurt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I sat on that hard wooden bleacher with my hand on my daughter\u2019s back and watched the next three lots go through the ring without seeing any of them. Kinley sat beside me with the bid card in her lap and her eyes on the floor of the ring. She didn\u2019t move. She didn\u2019t look across the ring at her father again. When the sale broke for lunch twenty minutes later, she stood up and walked out of the sale barn without a word, and I followed her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She didn\u2019t cry until we got to the pickup.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She held it together walking across the parking lot, past the trailers and the mud and the men smoking by their trucks. She climbed up into the passenger seat of my Dodge and shut the door and buckled her seatbelt. Then she put both hands over her face, and her shoulders started to shake, and she cried the way she hadn\u2019t cried since that night two years ago at the supper table.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I sat there behind the wheel with my hand on her knee and let her. There wasn\u2019t anything else to do. Out the windshield, I could see the sale barn and the big open doors and the cattle moving through the alleys, and somewhere in there, my ex-husband was writing a check for a heifer he didn\u2019t want and had nowhere to keep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
After a long time, Kinley wiped her face on the sleeve of her hoodie. She took a big, shaky breath. She unzipped the front pocket and took out the envelope and looked at it, and then she zipped it back in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIt\u2019s okay, Mom,\u201d she said. \u201cI\u2019ll just save more.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That was the worst part. Not the bidding. Not Troy\u2019s face across the ring. It was my fourteen-year-old daughter sitting in my pickup with her eyes swollen, saying it\u2019s okay, I\u2019ll just save more, like she\u2019d already decided it was her own fault for not having enough.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Five: Ivo<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I haul cattle for a living. I\u2019ve done it for nine years now, ever since the divorce, with a silver Featherlite gooseneck trailer and a three-quarter-ton Dodge that has three hundred and forty thousand miles on it. I haul calves to sale barns and pairs to summer grass and bulls to new owners, mostly in northeast Colorado and western Nebraska and Kansas, anywhere there\u2019s a cow that needs to go somewhere. It doesn\u2019t pay much, but it pays steady, and I like it. I like the long empty highways and the quiet and the ranchers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know ranchers from here to the Dakota line. That\u2019s the thing about hauling. You get to know every outfit on every road, every old man and every widow and every young couple trying to make a go of it. You stand in their corrals at five in the morning helping them load, and you drink their coffee, and they tell you things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That evening, after Kinley went to bed, I sat at the kitchen table and called one of them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ivo Kucera is seventy-eight years old. He runs eight hundred cows on a ranch along the Platte River outside of Ogallala, Nebraska, that his grandfather homesteaded in 1888. He\u2019s a small, wiry old man with a white mustache and hands like tree roots, and he\u2019s the best cattleman I ever hauled for. He knows every bloodline in the Sandhills, and he can look at a calf in a sale ring for three seconds and tell you what she\u2019ll weigh as a cow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve hauled for him for seven years. The first time, I was so nervous I almost backed my trailer into his loading chute, and he stood there laughing with his hands in his pockets and then walked over and talked me in. After that, he called me every time he needed something moved.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He answered on the second ring, the way old men answer the phone, loud. \u201cKucera.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIvo,\u201d I said. \u201cIt\u2019s Lacey. I\u2019m sorry to call so late.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIt\u2019s not late,\u201d he said. \u201cI\u2019m reading the sale reports. What\u2019s wrong?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I told him. All of it. The two years of saving. The envelope. The black heifer. Troy across the ring, bidding against his own daughter while he looked her in the eye. Kinley in the pickup saying she\u2019d just save more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ivo didn\u2019t say anything until I was done. Then he was quiet for a long time, and I could hear his kitchen clock ticking through the phone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThat boy\u2019s daddy was a good man,\u201d he said finally. \u201cI knew Arnie Odegaard forty years. He\u2019d turn over in his grave.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHow much does she have?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNineteen hundred.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He was quiet again. I heard him shuffling papers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThere\u2019s a dispersal up in the Sandhills on Saturday,\u201d he said. \u201cNorth of Thedford, out toward Brownlee. Dorcas Lund is selling out.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I knew the name. The Lund outfit was famous, one of the oldest registered Hereford herds in Nebraska, and the Lunds had been breeding cattle on that ground since the 1920s. Harold Lund died last fall, Ivo said. Dorcas was eighty-one and she couldn\u2019t run it alone, and her family was all gone, and she\u2019d decided to sell everything. Cows, bulls, machinery, and the land too, to a neighbor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cShe\u2019s selling three hundred head,\u201d Ivo said. \u201cSome of the best Herefords in the state. People are coming from Montana and Texas.\u201d He paused. \u201cAnd she asked the auctioneer for something unusual. She\u2019s got two heifer calves she\u2019s held back. She wants them sold last, at the end of the day, after everything else. And she wants them sold to kids only. Nobody over eighteen can bid.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I sat at my kitchen table and didn\u2019t say anything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIt\u2019s two hundred miles,\u201d Ivo said. \u201cBut if you bring that girl up there, I\u2019ll meet you at the pens. And Lacey?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYes?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cDon\u2019t tell her about the kids-only part,\u201d he said. \u201cLet her think she\u2019s got to fight for it. She\u2019ll value it more.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Six: Two Hundred Miles<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Saturday we pulled out with the silver gooseneck at first light.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019d told Kinley on Thursday night. Not everything. Just that there was a big sale in Nebraska on Saturday, a dispersal, and there might be a heifer or two she could afford, and Ivo Kucera would be there to help her. She looked at me across the supper table for a long time without saying anything. Then she got up and went to her room, and I heard her open her dresser drawer, and I knew she was counting the envelope again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was cold that morning. Fourteen degrees, with frost on the windshield and our breath steaming in the truck cab until the heater caught up. We hooked up the trailer in the dark, with the yard light buzzing, and Kinley checked the hitch twice and the chains and the lights, the way I taught her. Then we climbed in the cab with a thermos of coffee and a bag of breakfast burritos from the Cenex, and we pulled out onto the county road at six-twenty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s about two hundred miles from our place near Sterling to Thedford, Nebraska. North through Julesburg and across the Platte, then up Highway 61 through Arthur and Hyannis into the heart of the Sandhills. There\u2019s nothing out there but grass. Rolling grass-covered hills as far as you can see in every direction, like an ocean frozen in place, with a windmill every few miles and herds of black and red cattle scattered across the hillsides like pepper. Kinley had never been that far north. She sat with her nose almost against the window, watching it go by.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley kept the envelope zipped in her hoodie pocket the whole way. Every so often I\u2019d see her hand go to it and press it, the way you\u2019d check that your wallet was still there. She didn\u2019t take it out. She didn\u2019t count it. She just kept her hand on it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Somewhere north of Arthur, in the middle of nowhere, she finally spoke.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMom,\u201d she said. \u201cWhy did Dad do that?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019d been waiting three days for her to ask. I\u2019d thought about what I\u2019d say. I\u2019d thought about lying, about telling her he probably needed a heifer, or he didn\u2019t know it was her, or he was just bidding for the fun of it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI think he\u2019s still hurt,\u201d I said. \u201cAbout the judge. About you choosing to live with me.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She looked out the window at the hills. \u201cI didn\u2019t choose against him,\u201d she said. \u201cI just couldn\u2019t live with him. Not like that. He was so mad all the time.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI know, honey.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cDoes he hate me?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I looked over at her. Fourteen years old. In her gray hoodie with two years of babysitting money zipped in the pocket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNo,\u201d I said. \u201cHe doesn\u2019t hate you. I think he hates that you didn\u2019t need him. And he doesn\u2019t know what to do with it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She was quiet for a long time. Then she said something I\u2019ll never forget.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI did need him,\u201d she said. \u201cI just needed him to be different.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Seven: The Rail<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The Lund place sits back off a gravel road twelve miles north of Thedford, in a valley between two big grass hills, with a white house and a red barn and a set of pipe corrals that must have cost a fortune. When we pulled in at ten-thirty, there were already two hundred pickups and trailers parked in the hayfield, and a big white sale tent set up beside the corrals with bleachers inside and a sound system. People had come from everywhere. I saw plates from Montana and Wyoming and Texas and Kansas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ivo was waiting at the pens when we got there. He was leaning on the pipe rail of the first pen in his old canvas jacket and a gray felt hat, with a cup of coffee from the food truck in his hand. When he saw my rig come in, he raised the cup.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley had only met him twice, both times when she rode along with me to haul his calves. She walked across the gravel toward him a little shyly, with her hands in her hoodie pocket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMr. Kucera,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIvo,\u201d he said. \u201cNobody calls me Mr. Kucera except the bank.\u201d He looked at her for a long moment, up and down, the way he looks at a heifer. Then he nodded once. \u201cYour mother tells me you saved two years.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYes, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHow much?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNineteen hundred dollars.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He nodded again slowly. \u201cThat\u2019s a lot of babysitting,\u201d he said. \u201cCome on. Let\u2019s go look at some cattle.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He stood at the rail beside Kinley like she was his own. For two hours before the sale started, he walked her through every pen on the place. He showed her how to look at a heifer\u2019s feet and her legs and the depth of her body. He showed her how to tell a good mother from her shape. He told her the history of every bloodline in the Lund herd, and she listened to every word with her hands wrapped around the pipe rail.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At the last pen, at the far end of the corral by itself, two little Hereford heifer calves stood side by side in the straw. Red with white faces, both of them, with white stockings and white bellies. They were small, maybe four hundred and fifty pounds each, and they stood close together like sisters. A hand-lettered sign was wired to the gate. LOTS 301 AND 302. SELLING LAST.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley stopped and looked at them. She didn\u2019t say anything. She just stood there with her hands on the rail.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThose two,\u201d Ivo said quietly. \u201cThose are the ones we came for.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The sale started at noon. The cows went first, then the bulls, then the bred heifers. The bidding was fast and hard, with buyers from big outfits all over the country, and the good cows were bringing three and four thousand dollars apiece. Kinley sat between Ivo and me in the bleachers, with her bid card in her hands, watching every lot go through, and I could see her face getting tighter and tighter as the prices went up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMom,\u201d she whispered, around three o\u2019clock. \u201cI can\u2019t afford anything here. Everything\u2019s three thousand dollars.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWait,\u201d Ivo said, before I could answer. \u201cDon\u2019t watch the other bidders. Watch me.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At five-thirty, with the sun going down orange behind the big grass hill to the west, the auctioneer finally got to the end. Three hundred lots, sold. He set down his gavel and took a long drink of water, and then he looked out at the crowd in the bleachers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cFolks,\u201d he said. \u201cWe\u2019ve got two more lots. Mrs. Lund has asked that these two heifer calves be sold to young people only. Eighteen and under. If you\u2019re over eighteen, I\u2019m going to ask you to keep your hands in your laps.\u201d He paused. \u201cAnd she\u2019s asked me to tell you that these two calves are out of the last two cows her daughters ever owned.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Eight: Dorcas<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The first heifer came into the ring, lot 301, the smaller of the two sisters. She stood in the straw and looked up at the bleachers with her white face, calm, and the crowd went quiet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There were maybe twenty kids in that tent with bid cards. Ranch kids from all over the Sandhills, some of them with their parents sitting behind them. A tall boy in a Stetson. Two girls in FFA jackets. A little kid who couldn\u2019t have been more than nine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWho\u2019ll start this heifer at five hundred?\u201d the auctioneer asked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley started to raise her card. Ivo put his hand on her arm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWait,\u201d he said quietly. \u201cLet them go first.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The bidding went to six hundred, seven, eight. The tall boy in the Stetson was bidding against one of the FFA girls. At nine hundred, the FFA girl dropped out. At nine hundred and fifty, the boy hesitated.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNow,\u201d Ivo said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley raised her card. \u201cOne thousand,\u201d the auctioneer called. The boy went to ten-twenty-five. Ivo nodded, and Kinley went to ten-fifty, and the boy looked at his dad in the bleachers behind him, and his dad shook his head.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSold,\u201d the auctioneer said. \u201cTen hundred and fifty dollars to number 47.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The first heifer went to Kinley at one thousand and fifty. She sat there holding her bid card in both hands, staring at the ring, like she couldn\u2019t believe it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then the second heifer came in, lot 302, her sister. And this time it was different. The tall boy in the Stetson wanted this one, and so did one of the FFA girls, and the bidding climbed fast. Eight hundred. Nine. A thousand. Eleven hundred.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The second one climbed past what Kinley had left. She had eight hundred and fifty dollars after the first heifer. The bidding was at nine hundred, and then a thousand, and she sat there with her card in her lap and her face going white.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She looked up at Ivo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He looked back at her for a long moment. Then he nodded once.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cGo on,\u201d he said. \u201cI\u2019ll stand good for it.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She raised her card. Eleven hundred. The boy went to twelve. She went to thirteen. The FFA girl dropped out. The boy looked at his dad again, and his dad shook his head again, and the boy put his card down.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSold,\u201d the auctioneer said. \u201cThirteen hundred dollars to number 47. And folks, I believe that young lady just bought herself a pair.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She won it. The whole tent clapped. Kinley sat there between Ivo and me with tears running down her face and her bid card in her lap, and Ivo reached over and patted her knee with his big rough hand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cGood girl,\u201d he said. \u201cYou waited. Most people can\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At the clerk\u2019s table afterward, there was a line. Buyers settling up, writing checks, signing brand inspection papers for out-of-state cattle. Kinley stood in line with me, clutching her envelope, and Ivo stood behind her. When we got to the front, there was an old woman sitting at the end of the clerk\u2019s table in a wool coat and a silk scarf, with white hair pinned up in a bun and a cane hooked over the back of her chair.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dorcas Lund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She looked at Kinley\u2019s bid card. She looked at Kinley\u2019s face.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYou came a long way,\u201d she said. Her voice was thin but clear. \u201cIvo says you\u2019re from Colorado.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYes, ma\u2019am,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cSterling.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dorcas looked at her for a long moment. Then she asked why a girl her age came two hundred miles for two heifers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley told her. All of it. Standing at the clerk\u2019s table in her gray hoodie with her envelope in her hand. The two years of saving. The babysitting and the stall cleaning and the birthday dollars. The little black heifer at the Sterling sale. Her father across the ring, bidding against her. Watching her the whole time. Not the calf.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She didn\u2019t cry while she told it. She just told it, plain, the way you\u2019d tell somebody the weather.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dorcas didn\u2019t say a word. She just listened, with her hands folded on top of the clerk\u2019s table. When Kinley was done, she was quiet for a long time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then she took the pen from the clerk. She pulled the ticket for lot 302 across the table. She drew a line through thirteen hundred dollars, and above it she wrote eleven hundred, and she initialed it. D.L.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMrs. Lund,\u201d the clerk said. \u201cYou can\u2019t\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI can do whatever I want, Earl,\u201d Dorcas said. \u201cIt\u2019s my sale.\u201d She handed the pen back. \u201cTwo hundred off. That\u2019s what she has left. Ivo doesn\u2019t need to stand good for anything.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley stared at her. \u201cMa\u2019am, I can\u2019t\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYes, you can,\u201d Dorcas said. Then she asked Kinley what she would name them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley thought about it. She looked at the old woman\u2019s face for a long time. Then she asked a question back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWhat were your daughters\u2019 names?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dorcas had to sit down before she could answer. She was already sitting, but she sat back in her chair, slowly, like the air had gone out of her. Her hand went to the silk scarf at her throat. Her eyes filled.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cEllen and June,\u201d she said finally. \u201cEllie and Junie. They were twins. They\u2019d have been fifty-six this spring.\u201d She swallowed. \u201cThey were fourteen. Your age. There was a school bus on Highway 2 in the winter of 1983. Black ice.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nobody at that clerk\u2019s table said anything. The clerk set down his pen. Ivo took off his hat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThose two heifers,\u201d Dorcas said, \u201care out of the last two cows the girls ever showed. Ellie\u2019s cow was called Blossom and Junie\u2019s was called Pearl. I kept their lines going forty-two years. Harold said I was crazy. Every year, I\u2019d keep back a heifer from each line.\u201d She looked out the tent flap at the corrals. \u201cI couldn\u2019t sell those two to just anybody. I wanted them to go to a girl who\u2019d love them.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley stood there at the table. Then she reached into her hoodie pocket and took out her envelope, and counted out eleven hundred dollars for the second heifer, and laid it on the table in front of Dorcas Lund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cEllie and Junie,\u201d she said. \u201cThat\u2019s what I\u2019ll name them.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Nine: Home<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We loaded them that bright, cold afternoon, with the sun almost down and the sky over the Sandhills going pink and gold. Ivo helped. He stood at the gate of the loading chute and talked the two little heifers up into my silver gooseneck, quiet and slow, and they went in side by side without a fuss, like they knew they were going together.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Before we could leave, there was paperwork. You can\u2019t just haul cattle from Nebraska to Colorado. There\u2019s a brand inspection, and a certificate of veterinary inspection from a vet saying they\u2019re healthy. The Nebraska brand inspector was there at the sale, a tired young man named Cody with a clipboard, and he checked the Lund brand on each heifer\u2019s hip and wrote out the papers. The vet at the sale had already checked them, and their health papers were ready at the clerk\u2019s table.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cFirst cattle?\u201d Cody asked Kinley, writing her name on the inspection certificate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYou going to register a brand?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley looked at me. I nodded. \u201cWhen we get home,\u201d I said. \u201cWith the Colorado Brand Board. She\u2019s been drawing it for a year.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley stood at the pipe pen with a halter in her hand, grinning like I hadn\u2019t seen in a year. The new halter Ivo had given her right there at the sale, a red rope halter he\u2019d bought from the vendor booth and handed to her without a word. She was standing at the rail looking through the slats of my trailer at the two red heifers inside, and her face was lit up like a Christmas tree.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dorcas came out to the trailer before we left. Her grandnephew walked her, holding her arm. She stood at the side of my gooseneck and looked in through the slats at the two heifers for a long time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYou\u2019ll send me pictures,\u201d she said to Kinley. \u201cEvery spring. When they calve.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYes, ma\u2019am.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cAnd you\u2019ll show them at your county fair.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dorcas reached out with one thin hand and put it on Kinley\u2019s cheek. \u201cEllie and Junie would have liked you,\u201d she said. \u201cThey were stubborn too.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We drove home in the dark. Two hundred miles. Kinley fell asleep against the window somewhere south of Arthur, with the red halter in her lap and her empty envelope folded in her hoodie pocket. I drove the whole way with the radio off, listening to the trailer behind us and the heifers shifting in the straw.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The next morning we turned them out in my pasture along the county road. Forty acres of brome and native grass behind the house, with a stock tank and a windbreak of cedars, fenced with four strands of barbed wire. It\u2019s the pasture right along the county road that runs past our place, County Road 37, a gravel road that goes from the highway to the feedlot east of town.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The road Troy drives every single day. Twice a day, back and forth to the feedlot, in his white Ford pickup. He\u2019d see them. He couldn\u2019t help it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley knew it too. She didn\u2019t say anything about it. But I noticed she\u2019d put a little hand-painted sign on the fence post by the gate that morning, on a piece of scrap board. ELLIE AND JUNIE. KO RANCH.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Ten: Sunday<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He drove past three times that week. I saw his pickup go by twice, slow, and Kinley told me she saw it once on her way home from school, stopped at the end of the pasture with the engine running. She said she couldn\u2019t see his face through the windshield. She said she didn\u2019t wave.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sunday after church, his pickup came down that road.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We\u2019d been to the Lutheran church in Haxtun, the same one where Troy and I got married, and gotten home around noon. I was in the kitchen making sandwiches. Kinley had changed out of her church clothes into her jeans and her barn boots and her gray hoodie and gone straight out to the pasture with a bucket of range cake, the way she\u2019d done every morning and evening since we brought them home. Ellie and Junie had learned the sound of the bucket by the third day. They\u2019d come trotting across the pasture to the gate as soon as they heard it rattle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I saw it through the kitchen window. The white Ford coming from the direction of town, slow. It slowed down more as it came alongside the pasture.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It stopped by my fence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Right at the gate, where Kinley was standing in the grass with the bucket, with Ellie and Junie crowded around her eating the cake out of her hand. She was laughing at something one of them did. She looked up when she heard the truck stop, and I saw her face change.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I put down the knife and the bread and went to the back door. I didn\u2019t go out. I stood in the doorway with my hand on the frame where I could see.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy got out and started walking toward her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He was wearing jeans and a clean flannel shirt and his good boots, and he wasn\u2019t wearing his cap. His hair was combed. He walked slowly through the ditch and up to the fence, and he stopped there with his hands on the top wire. Kinley stood on the other side with her bucket. Neither of them said anything for a long time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then he said something I couldn\u2019t hear. Kinley didn\u2019t answer. He said something else, and she shook her head. Then he climbed through the fence, carefully, holding the wires apart, and stood in the pasture with her, about six feet away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I opened the back door and walked out across the yard. I didn\u2019t hurry. I didn\u2019t want to break whatever was happening. But I wanted to be close enough to hear, and close enough to step in if I had to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I got to the edge of the yard, I heard Troy say, \u201cAre those Lund heifers?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYes,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cTheir names are Ellie and Junie.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He looked at them for a long time. Then he looked at her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHow\u2019d you afford two Lund heifers?\u201d he asked. \u201cThose went for three thousand a head up there. I read the sale report.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNot these two,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cThese were for kids only.\u201d She held out a piece of cake to Junie, who took it gently out of her hand. \u201cAnd Mrs. Lund took two hundred dollars off the second ticket. Because I told her what you did.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy flinched like she\u2019d hit him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Eleven: The Black Heifer<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYou told her,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cShe asked me why I came two hundred miles,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cSo I told her.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy looked down at the grass. He stood there in my pasture with his hands at his sides, and I watched his shoulders go down, and I realized I\u2019d never seen him look small before. Not in fifteen years. Troy Odegaard was always big, always loud, always the one who knew best.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI bought that heifer,\u201d he said finally. \u201cAt Sterling.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI know,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cI was there.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI mean I still have her.\u201d He looked up. \u201cI\u2019ve got her out at Darrell Schultz\u2019s place. I\u2019m paying him to keep her. Four dollars a day.\u201d He laughed, a short, unhappy sound. \u201cI don\u2019t have any grass. I don\u2019t have anywhere to put her. I paid two thousand dollars for a heifer I can\u2019t keep, and I\u2019ve been paying four dollars a day for two weeks to keep a heifer I didn\u2019t want.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley didn\u2019t say anything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know why I did it,\u201d Troy said. \u201cThat\u2019s a lie. I know exactly why I did it. I was sitting up there in the top row, and I saw you come in with your mom, and you were so happy. And I thought, she\u2019s going to buy her first heifer and she didn\u2019t even tell me. She didn\u2019t call me. She didn\u2019t ask me to come look at it with her.\u201d His voice cracked. \u201cAnd I wanted you to need me. Just once. I wanted you to have to ask me for something.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He stopped. He rubbed his face with both hands.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSo I bid,\u201d he said. \u201cAnd I watched your face. And you looked at me like I was a stranger. And I kept bidding because I couldn\u2019t stop.\u201d He looked at the ground. \u201cAnd then you put your card down, and I won, and I sat up there and felt like the lowest man in Colorado.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley stood very still. The heifers had finished the cake and wandered off a little way to graze. The wind moved through the brome.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI needed you, Dad,\u201d she said finally. Her voice was very quiet. \u201cI didn\u2019t need you to buy me a heifer. I needed you to not bid against me.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy\u2019s face crumpled. He stood there in the pasture with tears running down into his beard, and he didn\u2019t wipe them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI know,\u201d he said. \u201cI know, honey. I\u2019m sorry. I\u2019m so sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then he reached into the pocket of his flannel shirt and took out a folded piece of paper. He held it out to her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIt\u2019s the bill of sale,\u201d he said. \u201cAnd the brand inspection. For the black heifer. I signed it over to you this morning. At the brand office. She\u2019s yours. I\u2019ll haul her out here tomorrow.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley looked at the paper in his hand. She didn\u2019t take it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI don\u2019t want her,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy stared at her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI don\u2019t want her, Dad,\u201d Kinley said again. \u201cI\u2019m sorry. I don\u2019t. Every time I looked at her, I\u2019d see you up in the top row.\u201d She looked over at Ellie and Junie, grazing side by side in the grass. \u201cI\u2019ve got my heifers. I paid for them myself. Mrs. Lund gave them to me because she wanted them to go to a girl who\u2019d love them.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She was quiet for a moment, looking at the two red heifers. Then she looked back at her father, and something in her face had changed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBut I know somebody who\u2019d want her,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWho?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThere\u2019s a girl in my 4-H club,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cHannah Ruiz. Her dad got hurt at the feedlot last year. You probably know him. Marco Ruiz.\u201d Troy nodded slowly; Marco had worked the same shift. \u201cHannah\u2019s wanted a heifer for three years. She\u2019s been saving too. She has three hundred and forty dollars.\u201d Kinley looked at the paper in her father\u2019s hand. \u201cShe\u2019ll never have two thousand.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy looked at his daughter for a long time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cThere\u2019s a heifer program,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cThrough the Logan County 4-H. Pass It Forward. Somebody donates a heifer to a kid who can\u2019t afford one. The kid raises her and shows her, and then gives the first heifer calf back to the program to go to the next kid.\u201d She paused. \u201cMrs. Lund kind of did it for me. With the two hundred dollars. You could do it for Hannah.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chapter Twelve: County Fair<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy took the black heifer to Hannah Ruiz the next Saturday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He didn\u2019t tell anybody he was going to do it. He just called the 4-H extension office in Sterling on Monday morning and asked how the Pass It Forward program worked, and the extension agent, a young woman named Amanda, walked him through it on the phone. There was paperwork. A donation agreement, a brand transfer, a health certificate. He filled it all out himself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On Saturday, he hauled the black heifer out to the Ruiz place in a borrowed trailer, with Kinley riding along in his passenger seat. She told me about it that night at supper. She said Hannah came out of the house in her pajamas and stood in the yard and didn\u2019t say anything at all, just put both hands over her mouth. She said Hannah\u2019s dad came out on his crutches and shook Troy\u2019s hand for a long time without letting go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cShe named her Domino,\u201d Kinley said. \u201cBecause she\u2019s black with one white spot on her forehead.\u201d She stirred her mashed potatoes. \u201cDad helped her put the halter on. He showed her how to tie a quick-release knot. The way Grandpa Arnie taught him.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I didn\u2019t say anything. I just reached across the table and took her hand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Troy started coming by on Sundays after that. Not every Sunday at first. Every other one, when it wasn\u2019t his weekend. He\u2019d pull up by the pasture gate after church and get out and stand at the fence while Kinley fed Ellie and Junie. Sometimes he\u2019d climb through and help. Sometimes they\u2019d just stand there together at the fence and not say anything at all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In May, he helped her build a new set of pipe panels for a little sorting pen behind my barn. He brought the welder from his buddy\u2019s shop. They worked on it for three Sundays. I watched them from the kitchen window, my ex-husband and my daughter, bent over the welder together in the spring sun, arguing about where the gate should go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley registered her brand with the Colorado Brand Board in April. It cost a hundred and sixty dollars for five years, out of the money she had left after the sale. She\u2019d drawn it a hundred times on the back of her school notebooks. A K and an O, with a little heart underneath them. The Brand Board approved it in June. She has the certificate framed on her bedroom wall, next to a photograph Dorcas Lund mailed her, an old black-and-white picture of two fourteen-year-old girls in a show ring in 1982, each holding the halter of a red-and-white Hereford heifer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The Logan County Fair was the first week of August. Kinley showed Ellie and Junie in the breeding heifer class, two red-and-white Herefords with white faces walking side by side into the ring, and the whole arena stopped to watch them. She\u2019d washed them and clipped them and blown out their hair that morning, the way Ivo taught her on the phone, and they looked like sisters out of a painting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ellie took a blue ribbon. Junie took a red. Kinley stood in the middle of the ring with both halters in her hands, grinning so hard her face must have hurt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hannah Ruiz showed Domino in the same class. She took a purple. Grand champion breeding heifer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I sat in the bleachers on the third row. On one side of me was Ivo Kucera, who drove a hundred and seventy miles from Ogallala that morning in his best felt hat. On the other side was Dorcas Lund, eighty-one, who rode down from Thedford with her grandnephew because she said she wasn\u2019t going to miss it, not after forty-two years. She held Ivo\u2019s arm and cried through the whole class.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And in the top row, on the far side of the arena, where the light from the big doors is so bright you can barely see, sat a man in a clean flannel shirt and a black feed cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He didn\u2019t raise his hand. He didn\u2019t bid on anything. He just sat there with his arms crossed and watched his daughter walk two red heifers around the ring, and every time she passed below him, he stood up and clapped so loud you could hear it over the announcer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
After the class, Kinley came up into the bleachers with both ribbons pinned to her shirt. She hugged me. She hugged Ivo, who patted her back and said good girl. She hugged Dorcas for a long time, the old woman holding her face in both hands and saying something to her I couldn\u2019t hear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then Kinley turned and looked across the arena, at the top row on the far side.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She raised her hand. Not a bid card. Just her hand, the way you\u2019d wave to somebody across a crowded room. Like she was saying, I see you. I\u2019m glad you\u2019re here.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Across the arena, in the bright light from the doors, Troy raised his hand back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then he came down out of the top row, slow, through the crowd, all the way around the arena to our side. Kinley met him at the bottom of the bleachers. And he reached out and touched the blue ribbon on her shirt, very gently, with one finger, the way you\u2019d touch something you were afraid you might break.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYour grandpa would be so proud,\u201d he said. \u201cOf both of you. You and your heifers.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cEllie and Junie,\u201d Kinley said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cEllie and Junie,\u201d he said. He looked over at Dorcas in the bleachers, and something passed between them, an old woman who\u2019d lost her daughters and a man who\u2019d almost lost his. He took off his cap and nodded to her. She nodded back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then he turned to Kinley.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWould you show me?\u201d he asked. \u201cYour heifers? In the barn? I want to see how you fit them.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kinley looked at him for a long moment. Then she took his hand, the way she used to when she was little, and led him down the bleachers and across the arena toward the cattle barn, where two red heifers stood side by side in the straw under a hand-painted sign that said ELLIE AND JUNIE, KO RANCH. I watched them go, my daughter and her father, walking slowly together through the crowd. Neither one of them was in any hurry. Neither one of them was trying to win.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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